I finally started my internship period last week. Not gonna lie it was really hard. Physically and emotionally. Adapting to changes has always been something I find hard to overcome. Growing really is hard. Success is never easy. Dreams might stay as dreams... These harsh truth haunted me everyday. When someone ask if I'm okay, funnily I have no bloody idea. Am I happy or sad? I feel like I stopped feeling these things. No matter what I have to go through this this. I feel like I'm getting further away from the joy of life. Maybe I just lack inspirations. Idk. 

Mistakes. I made a plethora of mistakes. I think I'm starting to grow numb from doing so many mistakes. I feel like it's the best way to learn new things. Living alone has always been something I fear most because I'm scared of doing these mistakes. But Alhamdulillah God really helped me to be strong enough to face these fears. Maybe one day I will be able to grow from all these mistakes and become a a very very strong woman. A woman version that I truly aspire to be, 

At this point I have no idea what I'm writing anymore. I'm just letting my heart flow through my typing fingers. There is nothing inspiring for me to give here. Just the ups and downs of my life. Yeah :) ..